ARGH! The STRESS of waiting!

I came across a blog called "2 Week Wait" and boy is it true. The waiting is the most frustrating part of this process. (Waiting for your period, waiting to ovulate, waiting for tests, waiting for results, waiting to see if you are pregnant...) I try my best to get the thoughts out of my mind but seriously how many episodes of "Real Housewives of (insert your favorite city)" can I watch so I can numb my mind? So while I wait, I will expand on the “What the F@#$?” Topic.

If you recall #1 on the list is "Just try to relax." A favorite but not as great as #2.

What the F@#$? continues...

2) "It is God's Plan”, “This is what God wants”, or some other comparable idiotic phrase. First of all, if you believe in God or any other divine entity that brings you joy and peace to your heart, that is amazing. I am not going to debate religion or faith since I have struggled with my own faith since the day my brother died. (That is another blog.)Just so you know, when you say things like that, it sounds judgmental and immensely insensitive.

I know (or hope) you don't mean to be insensitive but when I hear you say, "It is God's Plan" I think to myself, wow this is a not so nice God. Here I am, a responsible, mature (somewhat), caring, emotionally stable (questionable lately!), in a committed relationship, financially stable, loving family, don't do drugs (actually, never done drugs), not an alcoholic, etc. and God does not want me to have a child? Why am I not worthy to have a child but the meth/crack head can have a child and end up putting the 4 week old in the microwave? Or the parents who put their child in a dog crate and starve the child of food, love and attention? Or the parent who abandons their child in a trashcan in the dead of winter? I can go on and on but I think you get the point. (Plus, is God really interested in my ovaries, fallopian tubes and uterus? God should really focus on more important things such as children dying of starvation and de-hydration, wars, genocide…)

A word of advice, when a woman is sharing that she is infertile do not say this is what God wants. Just listen…

3) “You can have my kid(s)”. I get this one from friends whose children are, at the precise moment when we are having a conversation, crying, begging for attention, annoying the parent, etc. I know you are trying to be funny (I am the Queen of Sarcasm and sometimes at the most inappropriate of times) but seriously? What I hear you say is; having your own children is not that big of a deal, don’t feel bad you are not missing much. Imagine for a second that your “wish” comes true and you had this great child, albeit at times annoying, and all the sudden the child is gone. You would not want that, you would be devastated. Well it is the same for me; it will be devastating if I cannot have children. Would it be the end of me? Of course not, but a big part would be missing.

I hope we are successful, so I (we)can hear our baby cry, beg for our attention and annoy us!